But then I woke up this morning and allowed God's mercies to wash over me afresh. I am far from perfect and on the journey too. And in the midst of all this pain and judgement, trying to throw it back only feels dirty. So I want to choose love instead. I can't come from me, but from a deep, DEEP place within me where only God can be, I feel something rising. I am just going to walk with my head held high and love.
God reminded me of HIS love and how, "We love because he first loved us." (-1 John 4:19). I am loved. I have nothing to hide, and I carry no shame. I am not condemnded even though I am not perfect. I am loved. So I take that love and give it to others.
It reminded me of this quote from Mother Teresa:
"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.Even in the midst of the darkness, all I can do is love anyway. I don't say all this to sound super-spiritual, but just to say that from the depths of hurt and betrayal, God is there and He can create something new out of those ashes. I wouldn't believe it unless I was experiencing it myself.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."
I will love anyway.