Many of you have been following the story of Ntokozo in our lives, and have held your breath watching it unfold, terrified of what this damaged person might do in our loving and happy home. Now as things are really unraveling with Ntokozo, many of you are living in this fear and can't bear to watch her hurt us and disrupt the things that God is doing in our ministry.
We want to say thank you for your intentions to love and support us as a family. We know you desire to see our lives and ministry abundant and full of joy and success. Thank you for the ways you have reached out during these difficult and challening times of taking Ntokozo into our home.
We appreciate your love, but feel it is now time to make VERY clear the vision we have for Ntokozo's life and invite you to be a part of it. In NO way did we seek to be foster parents to a traumatized, Zulu, orphaned teen mom. Who ever would??
Well God would. God saw this beautiful girl, so hurt and imprisioned in her pain and trauma and He decided to make a way out with His love. And so He brought her to us. We didn't seek it out, we didn't want it, and we continue to think we aren't good or loving enough to actually see this through. But thankfully we aren't alone, and we have the power and strength of God within us.
God has brought Ntokozo into our lives. We don't know how our story with her will play out, but when we think about how long she will be with our family, we envision forever. She is our daughter now. We would never think of finding a new home for Kieren when trouble arises, and we have decided to see Ntokozo in the same way. In our own strength, certainly we cannot carry out this vision. But with God ALL THINGS are possible.
We believe that God is going to restore and heal Ntokozo. Only God can, but we believe God WILL. We want you to know this so you will be BELEIVING with us. We want to keep your vision to heaven and your hearts focused on healing and wholeness for Ntokozo, and nothing less. We are thankful that you are 'protective' of us, but we are expecting a miracle in Ntokozo's life that only God could do. Let's pray it into reality TOGETHER.
With great love and thankfulness to YOU who we could NEVER do this without!!
Casey and Sarah
“And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” -2 Corinthians 3:18
“We think we have to change, grow and be good in order to be loved. But rather we are loved and we receive His grace so we can change, grow and be good.” -John Powell
3 comments:
Sarah - I have been following your blog for some time and am always blessed by it! Thanks for sharing your amazing adventure with us. Dave and I have been pursuing foster care for some time both in FL and now in MI, and I have to say your post today is PERFECT!!! You guys are doing something RIGHT for this beautiful girl to feel comfortable enough to let her pain and hurt show...so please know I will be joining with you in prayer and I do truly BELIEVE God WILL do an amazing work in her!!!
I believe in you and your family and what God has for you and Ntokozo. I have been reading a book by Brene Brown (wish we could have book group and talk about it together) but as I was reading it, I was highlighting sections to send to you...so i will just put out the rec here: The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. Good for us to read (for ourselves) but also amazing info for your work with Ntokozo. Love you!
So proud of you all (and of the Jesus in you). You are doing the right thing! Trusting God to heal your sweet "brown" girl and to help you along the way. :) Love you all!
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